Wednesday, September 12, 2007

A Week Away


It's almost here! That walk. That sixty. Mile. Walk. Do I have all my gear squared away? No. Have I packed up my bag to make sure everything I need to bring weighs less than 35 pounds? No. Have I tested my air mattress to make sure it doesn't leak? No. Have I broken in my brand new pair of walking shoes? No. Am I ready? Yes. Yes I am!

I'm really excited, and I'm going to turn all of those "nos" in the paragraph above into "yeses" this weekend. I know that walking sixty miles is going to take a toll on my body. I know there will be pain. I know I will be tired, and right now I'm thinking bring it on.

When did I become a person who welcomes pain and hardship? Somewhere during all of the training I've been doing these past few months I've learned that I can do more than I think I can. In the past I would tend to wimp out and give up when something got hard. I would say to myself, "I'm not cut out for this, I'll just do something that comes easily to me," but because I made a commitment to raise money that will go toward possibly finding a cure for breast cancer one day, and because I made a commitment to raising money to help women and men who are fighting breast cancer right now, and because I made a commitment to raise money to help teach women and men how to detect breast cancer, I forced myself to work through the hard stuff. Now I look forward to accomplishing something I didn't think I could.

The countdown begins. Just 7 days left!
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What Kind of World Do You Want?



*Just 5 days left until the 3-Day!

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My Trusty Fanny Pack


This pack has accompanied me through many miles of training, and on Friday I will strap it around my waist and it will travel sixty miles with me over the course of the weekend. It carries my walking essentials: water, sports drink, blister pads, band-aids, power bars, an extra pair of socks, sunscreen, lip balm, Body Glide, foot powder, a rain poncho, my cell phone, ID, money, and my camera.

I've pinned pink ribbons on it...

On the ribbons I've written the names of the people for whom I'm walking; some of them breast cancer survivors and some of them people who eventually lost their battle with breast cancer.


A couple of them are fighting for their lives right now. Whymommy is one of those people. If you haven't met her yet you should. I will take each of them along with me on this walk. It's a small gesture on my part, but I want them and their loved ones to know I'm thinking of and praying for them.

*Just 3 days left until the 3-Day!
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All Packed


Because the crew at the 3-Day are all volunteers and because the 3-Day folks care about the crew's backs we are only allowed to have bags that weigh 35 pounds or less. Quite a feat to accomplish when you consider everything I, personally, need to be comfortable sleeping in a tent. Oh gosh. I just thought of something I forgot. Hmmm, a flashlight will have to do. I'll be too tired to care about a night light/tent fan, don't you think? I hope so.

My bag weighed exactly 35 pounds! I squeezed everything in there, and made the weight! W00t! I hope I haven't forgotten anything else.



I also put a couple of decorations on it in case several hundred other walkers heard about the sale Target had on rolling duffel bags.

When we arrive at the starting point of the walk our bags will all go into trucks that will then be taken to camp to wait for us until we finish walking our 23 miles the first day. Then we will have to find our bag in the pile, lug the thing to our camp spot, set up our tent, and then go get some dinner. All this after walking all day. We've been advised not to hit the showers as soon as we get into camp, but to set up and eat first. You see, they don't want to have to drag naked passed out women from the shower stalls. We're to make sure we won't be passing out before we shower. We've also been advised not to lock the porta-potties when we're using them for the same reason. What an adventure!

*Just 2 days left until the 3-Day!
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Opening Ceremonies

I'm home, fed and loved up by my family, and ready for bed. Here's a clip of opening ceremonies for the Seattle 2007 Breast Cancer 3-Day.



More to come! Must. Sleep. Now.
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The 3-Day - Day One

We all arrived at our starting point bright and early, we were still a bit groggy, the sky was still dark. Our team name was Race for the Rack, and our little redheaded spitfire of a team mate, Frosty, managed to procure some antlers for us all to wear. Get it? Rack? Sigh. I know, it's not my cutest look. In fact, I was not cute at all this weekend. Not once.

Jennifer, Frosty, Ann, and Dona

The first half of our walk on the first day was really wonderful. The scenery was the best, the sun was shining, the air was cool, and everyone was still feeling really good. About every 3 miles we had a "pit stop" where we could refill our water, use the port-a-potties, get some snacks, and stretch. "Hydrate! Urinate! Stretch! Stretch! Stretch!" Just a little something I picked up. There were a lot of perky people on this walk.

Pit Stop Number One
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More Gorgeous Scenery

All along the route there were people camped out to cheer us on. Some wore outlandish costumes, many brought treats like candy, popsicles, and best of all spray bottles! for a refreshing mist as we walked by. This (below) lady was so great with her loud music and dancing. One of the walkers I trained with (in blue) decided it was too good to pass up and started dancing too. This was a whole new side of her that I'd never witnessed during training. I love her even more now, such a cool lady.

Another Pit Stop and Another Stylish Look for Me

Frosty and I

Quote of the day: "Where's Mom? She said to look for pink." from a little girl meeting her mom at our lunch stop.


We walked a total of 23.5 miles on the first day. At the last pit stop with just 3 miles to go, I thought I was not going to be able to keep going. Something had happened to my knee, and every step felt like a hammer bash to the side of my knee cap. I went to the medical tent and they strapped some ice to me just to get me to camp, but I was in a lot of pain, and almost hopped on the air conditioned bus that would take me straight to camp for the night.

I couldn't bear the thought of giving up so soon, only day one! Ann, my sister-in-law and team mate was a great encourager, and together we decided to go the rest of the way, which was mostly up hill with the sun staring us right in the face. Just when I knew I couldn't take another step on that knee I saw the field of pink tents. I'd made it, but I hurt so bad I had to choke back tears when the crew cheered me into camp.




I met up with Frosty and Dona, traded my walking shoes for flip flops, and the three of us went and got dinner. As the night went on I became more and more depressed because I knew my knee was hurt too bad to walk 19.5 miles the next day. I also knew that I'd be sleeping on the ground, without my family, and no wine, margaritas or hot baths. I had a tent to myself because my assigned tent mate decided to book a hotel room (NOT a bad idea at all, I was thinking at this point.) so I said goodnight to my team mates and zipped up my tent where I spent the next four hours crying myself to sleep. I couldn't imagine why God would set me on this path only to fail.

Not only was I depressed, but my nerves were so raw, and I started to feel very panicky. After reading the messages on the memorial tents in camp, where walkers from each city had written very personal messages, I began to fear my own death, with the knowledge that no one escapes it, and if leaving children behind could happen to one mother it could certainly happen to me.



I was so miserable I almost called my husband to come and take me home, but then I'd cry even harder thinking of letting my kids down because they were excited about coming out to cheer for me along the route on Saturday. I thought of all of you too, and your encouraging messages, "You can do it!" and I cried some more because it was very clear at that point that no, I couldn't.
For the rest of the night I cried and prayed and made FIVE trips to the port-a-potties. I slept a little too, and after a very long night I greeted Day Two.

Stay tuned.
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Day Two

On day two I woke up at 5:15 AM. It was dark and cold. Although I got very little sleep the night before, I was feeling pretty good. My knee was feeling better and I had lots of energy. We headed across camp to the dining area where we ate, shivering under bright lights with darkness all around.

One thing I will say about camp is we were fed really well. On day one for dinner we had spaghetti, garlic bread, green beans, salad, and a chocolate eclair for dessert. I ate every bite after that first day. For breakfast on day two we had scrambled eggs, bacon, biscuits, oatmeal, cereal, muffins, and yogurt. I didn't eat all of that, but ate plenty to get me going for the day.




Within the first mile, my knee started to really hurt again. We had a long downhill stretch at the very beginning, and down hurt much more than up. I made it 2.6 miles to the first pit stop where I got an ace bandage from medical. I was told that there would be a sports medicine tent at the next pit stop, which was at the 4.9 mile mark, so I just needed to make it another 2.3 miles to that pit stop.

When we got there I waited in line a long time because there were a lot of walkers needing help. When my turn with the physical therapist came she spent a lot of time massaging my leg, trying different taping methods, and twisting my leg this way and that to try and determine if anything was torn or broken. The physical therapist advised me to ice the knee at every pit stop and if need be, grab a sweep van to each pit stop instead of walking the whole way. I did not want to hear that.

On the way to the third pit stop at the 7.1 mile mark I decided I could not walk much more. I thought if I could just get a van to lunch and then walk the 3.3 miles from there to the next cheering station where my kids would be I'd be okay. Not happy, but okay because at least I would have a chance to walk by my kids and make them proud of their mom.

Somewhere between the 7.1 mark and lunch at 10.4 miles I put my arms up in an X to signal a sweep van, letting them know I need to be picked up. I'm glad I was wearing my sunglasses because tears streamed down my face the whole way into lunch. This was it. I had failed. I could no longer accomplish everything I'd set out to do. I could no longer walk every single mile of the 3-day, which I had trained so hard to do for seven months. I can't remember a time I felt more disappointed than I did on day two.

The view inside the sweep van, a view I had hoped to avoid.

At lunch there were more long lines for medical assistance. I didn't want to stand in line to try again to figure out what might help. I just rested and iced my knee so I could squeeze 3.3 more miles out of it.


I waited for Ann, who kept on walking when I caught the sweep van, and after she'd eaten and rested we headed out together, both of us really looking forward to seeing our families on the route. I almost caught a sweep van to the next pit stop that was only .3 miles away from the cheering station because I was in so much pain and we still had at least a mile and a half to go, but decided to keep going, somehow I made it to the cheering station.


I can't tell you how wonderful it was to see my family on the route. They lifted my spirits so much. It was the best medicine in the world. At one point, Mike kneeled down on one knee, put both of his hand on my hurt knee and prayed. I was very touched, not in much of a believing mood at that point, but moved to tears. When we said our goodbyes and continued our walk my knee didn't hurt a bit. I still believed it was best to catch a sweep van, and then get on the SAG bus which would take me back to camp, though.

When I had walked far enough away so that my kids wouldn't see, I again made the X signal with my arms and got on the sweep van. I felt a little guilty getting on when my knee wasn't hurting at all, but I figured that was just because of the endorphins that kicked in when I saw my darling husband and sweet kids. That and my knee had had a little rest, and it always felt better for a few steps after resting, but then got progressively worse.

At the next pit stop, I got on the big SAG bus. (the nice air conditioned bus that takes weary walkers back to camp.)

The bus was completely full of walkers who could no longer walk. Some were young, some old, some skinny, and some with more to love, but all were hurting and disappointed to be going back to camp. At this point, although I was disappointed, I was no longer sad. I had gotten all the crying out of my system, and I was determined to rest and take care of my knee so that my last day on the walk would be an AWESOME one.


Back at camp I showered, hung out in the 3-day cafe with my leg up writing in my journal, and talking on the phone to Mike and the kids. When Dona and Frosty got back they were both hurting so badly that they were crying, and then we all were laughing because they literally had to crawl on their hands and knees to get into the shady spot next to our tents. I teased them about taking their pictures while they were crawling, and oh what a sight they were. I was sorry to see them hurting, majorly impressed that they walked the entire 19.5 miles of day two when I saw their blisters, and couldn't help wondering if I had wimped out a little too early. These ladies are both quite a bit older than I, and they showed twice the determination and mental stamina.

After a nice long rest they hobbled to dinner and I walked with a spring in my step. My knee didn't hurt at all. In fact, it really hadn't bothered me once since I left the cheering station and the healing prayers of my husband.

That night we had a dance party!




I didn't dance. I wanted to save my knee for day three, whatever it might bring, but laughing with the people I had walked with in training for six months and enjoying each other's company was a real treat. I went to bed, and after all the noise of the crew breaking down camp late at night, I crashed. I was ready for day three, whatever it might bring.
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Day Three

I was awakened on day three by Frosty and Dona touching my foot through my sleeping bag. Like I said, I crashed hard the night before, and except for getting up to make a trip to the port-a-pottie at two in the morning, I don't think I moved all night. I asked them later if I was snoring, and they said no, in fact, they weren't even sure I was in the tent because all they saw was my sleeping bag and they didn't hear a sound. That's why they reached in and touched my foot, they were feeling my sleeping bag to see if I was there.

We got up and went to breakfast. When I sat down to eat I saw that Frosty was crying. I asked her what was wrong and she told me her feet hurt so bad she didn't think she was going to be able to walk. I knew just how devastated she was feeling, and I tried to give her the same pep talk she had given me just the night before, but it didn't make her feel better. Like me, she had determined to walk every mile. Frosty is a breast cancer survivor, for five years now, and 8 months ago she lost her best friend, who had been diagnosed with inflammatory breast cancer just the year before. She was walking for both of them. After breakfast Frosty went to her tent, wrapped up her feet, and decided she was going to walk. Dona, with blisters and pain of her own did the same.

We packed our bags, took down our tents, and lugged our gear over to the trucks before walking for the day.



On this last day of the walk, I had decided that I was going to walk as much as I could, ride the vans if I needed, but either way I was going to enjoy myself and soak up as much of this experience as I could.

When we walked down our first hill of the day my knee didn't hurt at all. I was so excited. Maybe I was actually going to be able to walk this day through to the finish line!

The scenery on day three was, by far, the best of the three days, at least for me. The mood at the start of the walk was light and I think everyone else was soaking up as much of the joy as they could too, even though many were really hurting.

Team Race for the Rack with the Seattle skyline as a backdrop

I walked the entire 15 miles of the last day with only my normal walking pains that I had grown accustomed to on my training walks. Along the way I thanked God for healing my bad attitude of the day before and for healing my knee so I could walk into closing ceremonies.

At our last pit stop, with only 3 miles left to go to the finish line, I called my husband.

"I'm three miles away! Where are you?"

"You're three miles away!? Oh my gosh!"

"Oh no, don't tell me you haven't even left home yet."

"I was gonna stop and get you flowers. I guess I can't do that now."

"Forget the flowers. Just come."

I wasn't even annoyed. I knew he'd make it in time to see closing ceremonies.

The Last stretch of our journey walking up First Avenue

Passing by Pike's Place Market

When we neared the finish line there was a huge crowd to greet us, high five-ing us along the way, congratulating us on our accomplishment, thanking us for walking. We walked through love and cheers and into a holding area, where we would wait for the very last walker so we could all walk into Memorial Stadium together for closing ceremonies.

The holding area was so cool. The other walkers who had made it there before us were there to welcome us with a deafening cheer as we walked in, and when I picked up my shirt, and joined everyone else in welcoming walkers, I thought this must be a little bit like what will happen in heaven when one is welcomed there by all the others who have made the journey there before. Instead of white robes, we all had our T-shirts with the "3" on the back, and I'm pretty sure that if there's a holding area in heaven it won't smell like sweat. Still, the thought filled me up to overflowing.


Frosty and Dona, Overjoyed!





When it came time to walk into Memorial Stadium we tried to link up with friends and stay together, so we could walk in with those we had come to know best. What a wonderful ending to not just a weekend, but a season of my life. I have grown so much from this, I can't even tell you, and I don't believe I'm saying this, but I'm keeping an open mind about doing it all over again next year.




A Clip of Closing Ceremonies

Over 2,500 Seattle walkers and 340 crew members raised 6.4 million dollars to help make breast cancer history. That number will go up as donations and corporate matching gifts continue to be processed.
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Pampering My Feet

A little post-walk treat from Mom. My very first pedicure!




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Inflammatory Breast Cancer

Many of the women I have been walking with while training for the Breast Cancer 3-Day are walking because they have lost someone to inflammatory breast cancer or IBC. IBC is the most aggressive form of breast cancer and early detection and treatment is crucial.

Whymommy at Toddler Planet was recently diagnosed with IBC and while fighting this cancer she is also fighting to spread the word about inflammatory breast cancer and save lives. Please go visit and support her, and read her post about IBC. It could save your life!


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Post-Walk Party


A few of my walking buddies and I at a little reunion celebration a couple of weeks after the walk.